Category: g-d


DECONSTRUCTING MYSELF OUT OF MY FAITH

I read, every Sunday or during the week, the Postsecret Blog. People of all ages send in postcards with secrets on them. Each Sunday the keepers of the blog post a new collection of secrets. Every week, at least one or two secrets grab me, hurt me, resonant with me, or inspire me. A few weeks ago, a postcard secret brought me to tears. No, it wasn’t because someone wanted to kill themselves or that they had been raped. The postcard was of an ocean wave lapping up on a beach at sunset. In the sand, someone has craved the word, “FAITH.” The entire postcard reads, “give me Strength to rediscover my FAITH I miss you (sic).” My tears surprised me. Not until that moment had I discovered I have deconstructed myself out of my long-standing faith. I have become cynical and mockingly anti-g-d. I miss my faith. It was not an uncritical faith, yet it was a faith in which I did not feel abandoned in this world. I felt and believed we all had purposes in life. That kept me going, through all the hellacious events in my life.

Now I do not believe in an intervening g-d. Now I do not believe I have a purpose in life. I am grieving these losses. Life is short and I am ready for the ride to be over. I cannot take one more loss, one more friend disappearing, one more bit of frustration — not one thing more. Some might ask if I abandoned g-d. Good question. But, which g-d? Who g-d? I do not know anymore. I never sought certainty, but I had found what I had come to experience as “g-d” as sustaining. Now I miss “her.” I miss my faith. And I have not an inch more strength to rediscover it.

The Deconstruction of my Faith

Postsecret posted September 16, 2012 at http://www.postsecret.com

g-d

I would like to meet Her someday soon.


I do believe in more than me.

Compare with this video:


So why not the Church?

We know, “historically,” that Jesus of Nazareth was biologically male.

(I wonder at times if the first Messiah were a woman, but no one would listen to Her.)

Theologically, according to the creeds and the doctrine of the trinity, Jesus was raised from the dead by G-d to “sit on the right hand of G-d” (as doctrine reads). If G-d is not a human being, G-d is beyond gender. If, as doctrine reads, again), Jesus of Nazareth became the Christ, the second person of the trinity, i.e., G-d, than Christ cannot be a ‘he’. Jesus was a ‘he’. Christ as G-d is not gendered.

We can refer to G-d as ‘She’ at times, for equal opportunity reasons. But we have never referred to Christ as ‘She’, only as ‘He’. (Except for musician Bobby Mcferrin who refers to Christ as “Daughter” in The 23rd Psalm.)

So, must we genderize Christ in our worship and liturgy?

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incarnation: a new consideration

I have come to consider the works of Jesus as Incarnate,

human and divine,

rather than Jesus of Nazareth himself.